April 9 – This Saturday will be 8 weeks’ out from the competition. This has been a rough week, one where I’ve felt really tired and worn out. Not fun. I haven’t been practicing my posing much this week *yikes*! Before this week, I had been doing about 15-20 minutes most days and have been improving.
Not my actual posing heels but pretty similar 🙂
The next 8 weeks will be rough, exhausting, nerve wracking and fun all at the same time. This week, I’ve been adding back in some more carbs and calories and loving it! Can’t wait until I can reverse diet back to where I was months ago. I love my food! Got to enjoy the small pleasures now because diet cuts and increased workouts are coming. Most likely accompanied by exhaustion and crankiness…. As of yesterday, I’ve confirmed my next posing session (April 22nd), reserved my figure suit, have my show application ready to mail on Saturday and my hair/makeup appointment booked for competition morning. Shit’s gettin’ real! It’s still one of those things that’s coming “one day, down the road” but it’s getting more real the closer I get. I’m still super nervous, excited and determined. I have to be. In 8 weeks, it’s me and the stage.
Feb 26 – Well, the competition got moved from June 20th to June 6th. AHH! Actually, the whole thing seems surreal. I know the competition is just months away but I’m still in that “hasn’t suck in” stage. Last weekend, I tried on some more figure suits and took some pictures for comparisons. Man, there are some beautiful suits out there! With the help of pictures and Shawn’s opinions, I’ve narrowed down the options to the handful of suits I’m considering for the comp. It’s amazing how tiny those things are! Here’s an example suit, I’m not the one modeling it 🙂
I’m not super lean right now but am in better than average shape. Trying these things on will still show every ounce of pudge on the body. Even more nerve racking is the fact that I’ll be wearing one of these. On a stage, in front of people. In heels. Yikes!
Though I’m scared sh**tless, trying on the suits and doing the posing classes keeps it all fresh in my mind, the motivation high and excitement forefront. I have another posing session next Tuesday and can’t wait!
Feb 18 – It’s about a month since my last entry and I’m still busting a**. Hired a new posing coach, Krissy, and had my first session with her on Valentine’s Day (romantic right…). Holy crap, it was awesome! I got to try on different suits that I’ll potentially where for the comp (I’m not ready to commit $200+ on buying a competition suit just yet) before we moved onto posing. We worked on walking (while very important for every day life, it is extremely important while wearing heels… on a stage… half naked… yeah…), turning and posing. It was 2 hours of fun, hard work and me trying not to topple over. Heels are no joke! On Saturday, I have an appointment to try on more suits at another rental place. So excited! It hasn’t quite sunk in yet that I’ll be on stage in less than 4 months but trying on the suits helps keep it fresh in my mind and keeps me super excited. Did I mention that I’m still nervous as hell? Pretty sure the day of, I’ll want to throw up. I wonder if there’s any way to sneak a flask into my suit?
Speaking of beverages… my diet has been tweaked for the last few weeks and I’m still working hard to put on size. A few more weeks will signal the 3 month mark and go time. I’m nervous for the upcoming training and meals. I know it will get progressively harder and exhausting.
Some days, my motivation and drive for the gym is no where to be found. Those days are when I have to dig deep and remind myself of why I’m there. Simply… I want to be there. For myself and my goals.
Jan. 22 – So this isn’t the first day of my journey. Far from it. This journey officially started last July, when I finally stopped dreaming of the day when I would gain more muscle and actually formed a plan of action towards it. With some gentle encouragement from my hubby, Shawn, I toyed with the idea of doing my first competition. It sounded fun, and scary!, but it all depended on how my progress would go. Everyone’s goals are different and are respected; however, my goal was not simply to get on the stage just to say I did it. I wanted to walk onto the stage feeling competitive, not just for the feeling of “yay, I’m so happy that I walked on a stage. In a bikini. In front of huge crowd of people.” Okay, now I want to throw up and rethink this whole thing! My point is that if I wanted to simply walk on a stage in front of a group of people, half naked, in heels and subject myself to judgment and possibly falling on my face, I would just pay $20 and join an improve class where I could be fully clothed (bonus!) and subject myself to ridicule in much the same way. This isn’t just a goal of getting on a stage. It’s a goal to build the muscle mass that I have dreamed about for a long time, work my a** off and push myself to be the best I can be and do something I had never dreamed possible. And I HAVE been working my a** off since July, pushing myself at the gym and, with a lot of help from my cute hubby, coming up with a great meal plan to help me reach my goals. I’m slowly gaining more muscle and couldn’t be happier with the results so far. I want more!
So, it’s just over 21 weeks from the show (June 20th) and I’ve been working on losing some body fat. Soon, I’ll start a heavier style of training and really kick it to the next level. Can’t wait!! Posing is really hard, harder than it looks from the audience’s point of view! I’m excited and scared sh**less to get on that stage but I’m definitely proud of the hard work and results so far. Bring it on!!!